invisible change

It’s strange and kind of wonderful how we can be okay and still feel like we’re on just the right path, even when what we wanted didn’t work out. Even when it’s been a massively lengthy string of “failures.”

I think it’s a good sign, in the face of rejection, to come to the realization that it’s alright and I still have all the other thriving and valuable parts of my life and growth that are going right. To realize I’m okay and I’m going to keep moving forward. And even though the obstacles are shitty and often unexpected, sometimes I even feel happy about starting again and taking the next steps and engaging with the liminal space. There’s the pivot and the chance to engage and improve, based on each additional experience. It’s strange to see something being built in the waiting; even though nothing has changed externally or situationally, I can see change, and I can feel a difference in myself.

This stems from giving life your best shot and working to stay aligned to your values every day, in as many ways as possible. It stems from deepening personal awareness and staying true to yourself and who you really want to be — regardless of scenario or obstacle or perfect timing or imperfect results.

I think having that rooted somewhere down inside gives the empowerment and permission to realize everything is somehow going to turn out fine and grand and even the obstacles are going to work for good.

Knowing I’m staying in alignment and very committed to my Practices is the life boat. It’s providing meaning, clarity, and opportunity, where there otherwise might be none.

Even when seemingly nothing has yet changed.